I'm So Excited and I Just Can't Hide It!!!

OMG!!!! My mom just gave the OK to go to NY for Christmas yesterday! I cant wait!! I miss NY sooooo much!!!! Its all ready been almost FIVE YEARS since we moved!! We moved on August, 1 2003. In a few weeks 2008 is coming, man how time flies. I wish that I could have started my journal just a few years ago so that I could remember my quirky, awkward over weight times. Wow, my life has gotten so much better since the dramatic weight loss! But, only half the battle is done... As soon as I get some N.O. Explode at Walgreen's or someplace I'll start making a work out plan. I want to start as soon as 2008 comes so it could be my resolution. If any one reading has a good work out plan for a beginner it will be greatly appreciated! Thanks! Anyways, today was kinda sad, or rather stressful. I had to cook my meal (egg, ham, cheese sandwich) and cook for the fam and Mama and Iche on the grill. I kept running up and down from the kitchen to the grill. I burned my bread, and I burned my eggs twice but I ate them anyway. I also burned a slab of steak and some chicken wings. I also hound out that my dad is taking stress-relief pills and has to do surgery for his back I think. My mom was gonna have a surprise birthday party for him on Saturday but he's been saying that he's waisting too much money. So, even though I don't really like him that much, my bday present for him will be to help save money. i don't know how yet but I think I'll do the Law of Attraction on that. In good news, i wrote a song today in McCafferty's Algebra class. I think it sounds pretty good, who am I kidding it sounds awesome! Lol! This weekend I have to go to the store to find information for my manual, but other than that I think I wanna hang out with Kei-ya-le. I really wanna hang out with Jesse, but when I gave him a comment last weekend asking if he wanted to hangout, he didn't reply. But Kei-ya-le is pretty cool too! Anyways, Im still writing the song I titled Cannabis. When that song gets famous I can see my self looking back at this post to read it. Lol! When I finish it I'll try and post it so I always have a back-up. Well, school tomorrow! FRIDAY!!! I hate how the week flys by sooo fast! We have a "Cultural Gathering" tomorrow in Ms.Chavero's class. That means PARTYYYY!!!! Lol! I miss Sra. Sachs soooo much!! I'm the party planner and I'm also bringing music, a movie and microwave pop corn. I hope it's fun! Heck, I know it'll be fun! Well, Reces Peace! Lol! Good Night!

Lesson Learned

Well I've been thinking about getting plastic surgery to remove the excess skin and the man boobs I still have. If I could just get the body I want! Why does this have to be sooo hard! I still have to work on getting my subconscious on the same level as me by imagining my self with the body I want, though its kinda hard to imagine it like that. Well, to start getting my fat ass to the gym I'm gonna start giving myself consequences... If I don't go to the gym and work out, I'm gonna give my mom my Ipod. That way I'll be sure to go to the gym! Lets pray that I have the self control to do this! Lol! I don't want to fully work out yet because I wanna learn how to get buff before anything, so I just want to get in the mood of going to the gym. I need to buy some N.O. Xplode though so I can get buff! Wow! For the first time I feel like I can do this! Literally, as I wrote that 2 seconds ago I had a feeling that I'm gonna get the body I want! Amazing! I cant wait to start! I have school tomorrow and I didn't do Fonseca's hw! Omg!!! It doesn't matter though, Ill just finish it tomorrow. I feel enlightened! P.s. I GOT A MOHAWK YESTERDAY!!! I wanted to say something yesterday but that post was already soo big! i got it at Ike's! I didn't like it though so I cut it off. I know!! Ive been growing my hair since July to do that, all for nothing! The sides were uneven so I told the guy to shave it off. Well, hair grows! Lol, that sounds like an ancient Chinese proverb! Also, I wanted to say something I learned from "Spider-Man 3" yesterday... He said that even if we cant control our surroundings or what happens to us, we could always just choose the right decision! That was a really interesting statement, even if it contradicts what the Law of Attraction says. You can control what happens to you! That writer should go see "The Secret". Lol! Good Night! Reces' PEACE!!! Lol!

Shut Up and Drive!

Hey! Sorry I haven't written in a few days! Well, thanksgiving was a couple days ago and it was boring. We had people come over our house like some of Mami's old friends. Mama, Papa and Iche also came over but Laiza was at Ny with Javier. Btw, Mami agreed to buy my plane ticket for to Ny for Christmas!!! Home at Last ahhh. Well, In other news.... I've decided to become a music producer like my homie Timbaland! I saw this ad for Full Sail College on Myspace. I'm googling how to become one and all about the business... u know how I do! Lol! I think to start becoming a producer I need to write songs, so I'm gonna look for titles and inspiration and maybe start tomorrow! I also want to start going to the gym to get the look Ive always wanted!

That is exactly what I want to look like! Maybe you could imagine my face at the top??? It's the perfect body for me, the abs, the pecs! Only, I want arms a little bigger, and a "v" at the waist. Well, It's time for me to take hold of the reigns, and fulfill my dream! Here's what I learned today listening to a podcast...

• If you want new results, you have to have new behavior. If you want new behaviors you have to get new feelings. To get new feelings you have to get new thoughts.
• Thoughts=Feelings=Actions, and
• The image you have of your self is who we become.

So, I realize that when I think of myself I need to think of myself as the that person I want to be. Also, to get the results that I want, I need to have my Thoughts, ...., and .... all moving in the right place. So I will need to think I am fit and toned, feel like I'm fit and toned and work out so I'm fit and toned. To become a producer I will need to think I am capable of becoming one, put emotion, or feeling towards it, and write and produce my own songs. I'm gonna add producer as my goal. Maybe Ill post everything Ive learned so far from podcasts... Well, Ill try, I mean WILL write tomorrow! lol! Bye!

Too Little, Too Late

Its soooo late but I really wanted to write today! Im gonna make it one of my goals! I just finished a current event for hosier right now. I really wanna get good grades! Im dissapointed in myself because i havent been trying as hard as I should be. Well, what ever! Let me focus on the postitive... christmas is coming!!! Yeaaa!!! I want to change my whole wardrobe! I cant wait! I also want a lot of books, like "The 48 Laws of Power". I wanna learn how to influence people to do stuff for me so I could be good in business. I just found out today that Laiza is going to ny with Javier for thanksgiving! This means that shes not going to ny with me for Christmas! I dont know how im gonna go to ny without her... Well, Que sera sera! Lol! I gotsta go to bed cuz its late! P.s. today I decided that I wanna become a song writer! Thats how Im gonna become famous!

Have I Told You Lately...

Hey whats up! This is my first entry! I really didn't want to write but I felt i had to. i really should go to sleep because there's school tomorrow! I want to go ice my face to close the pores... I know that's so interesting lol! Today, I felt bad because I felt conscious about the way I looked. As I was sitting in the living room, Sophia noticed that I something was wrong because I looked sad. She asked my mom "Whats wrong with Anthony? He looks mad." I looked at her and she smiled as to make me feel better. Then she started to stick out her tongue and blow strawberries to make me laugh. Then she got up and started to play tag with me! I felt so loved and honored! She actually tried to make me feel better, and she did! Soon, I was laughing and playing with her! She's an amazing girl and I love her soooo much! Today has shown me that someone loves me (even though she doesn't like to give or get kisses or hugs!)! My mini-goals this week is to not complaine & to stop being so hard on my self! Good night!

p.s. I just saw Beyonce win the international artist award or something on the AMA! What an inspiration! Everyone stood up and clapped for her! She's had 23 #1 singles around the world! And, she's been on 183 magazine covers! I wish I could be famous like that! I hope her new album is produced by Timbo!!!